Sanpixee The Alien: Sleep!
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sleep
I have not slept since coming to America and I refuse to take sleeping pills for it. A restful night here is about as elusive and as fruitless a pursuit as finding good jerk chicken. All I can do is bide wasted nights staring, forcing positive thoughts and orchestrating dreams like plays one act at a time.
My dreams are usually orchestrated around who currently makes my heart flutter or replaying an unpleasant recent scenario and replacing the real life ending with a preferred less awkward one…sometimes I even think of witty things, sayings or events that have amused me and wonderful things to add to social networking profiles…meaningless sterile thoughts, kept meaningless and sterile with the hopes of boring my brain to sleep.
Yet most nights it doesn’t work so here I am blogging at 4:54 AM, knowing full well I will be an unfocused mess by 10 AM…but too tired to exercise, too alert to watch a movie/sitcom, not interested in phone conversation…so here I am alone with my thoughts, forced to be introspective as I have nothing much to say or do regarding the real world when the one inside my head and inside my computer are so much more interesting.
I’ll turn off the lamp light, squeeze my eyes shut and try this one more time…
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